Vomit





How does one get over feeling emotional ? How does one get over feelings in general ? How does one ignore what their hearts want desperately ? How does one do any of the above without turning into an absolute nutty recluse the way I feel I am turning .

I haven't been out of my house for more than a couple hours in the last two days .

How do I get myself out of this ? How do I move forward if I constantly have emotions just fucking everything up ?

I'm so tired , but have so much to do and think about and to see to .

OH FUCK THIS . I need a fucking fag . Or 20 .

Actually , I just need my mum to fall asleep so I can have one :(

I really can't wait for Grumpy's to open again . Maybe I'll even start drinking coffee .

Goodnight . Maybe tomorrow will be better . Maybe . Maybe . Maybe .

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